Since 2003 my life has been such a mad bad roller coaster, Iv tried hard to just settle, I cant… Friends have come and gone, Iv done things and completely cocked up. I still do things and completely cock up. I say so much and it comes across wrong, I so want to find new friends who understand me, I would so love to find true love with the lady and all in common… the sharing-the eyes. Im doubting this will ever happen big time, it really scares me.
Yes genuine honest and totally trusting, I dont like being alone-Most dont admit it, esp men.
I mean, I should have had my boys last weekend, it didnt happen. So is life ment to carry on normal… no, it completly messes your head, i couldnt put my mind into work-im trying hard to be this so-called strong person. Im not, im so insecure and it seems that is who I am.
All I want is a really nice understanding woman whom we can share our minds together.
Im sick of cocking up…