Stuart Briggs

Living with sarcoidosis, the good, the bad, and lots of in between.

Cant sleep…

Since 2003 my life has been such a mad bad roller coaster, Iv tried hard to just settle, I cant…  Friends have come and gone, Iv done things and completely cocked up.  I still do things and completely cock up.  I say so much and it comes across wrong, I so want to find new friends who understand me, I would so love to find true love with the lady and all in common… the sharing-the eyes.  Im doubting this will ever happen big time, it really scares me.

Yes genuine honest and totally trusting, I dont like being alone-Most dont admit it, esp men.

I mean, I should have had my boys last weekend, it didnt happen.  So is life ment to carry on normal… no, it completly messes your head, i couldnt put my mind into work-im trying hard to be this so-called strong person.  Im not, im so insecure and it seems that is who I am.

All I want is a really nice understanding woman whom we can share our minds together.

Im sick of cocking up…

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One response to “Cant sleep…”

  1. Dawn

    Hi Stuart, you’re trying to cram so so many diffrent things into your life hun. I agree, it’s a real lonely place to be when you don’t have someone to come home to to share your thoughts with, laugh and enjoy being with but you know what Stuart you’ve got some friends out there who will stand by you through thick and thin. Enjoy your friends hun, concentrate on just being a Dad and try (i no its difficult) to enjoy your work and get into some sort of routine. The rest will come along when you’re least expecting it, that special lady. It will happen, there’s somebody for everybody out there, don’t try and rush it.
    You need a hobby aswell Stuart, something that will allow you to meet new people, make new friends and experience new things. You enjoy walking, i know that, get yourself on the internet and find out where your nearest rambling club is, no better way to clear your head than to be out in the fresh air and meet new people along the way. They’re not all old wrinklies who do that you know, i used to do it (no sarcastic comments!!!).
    Take a step back Stuart, take a deep breath and most of all dont try and PLAN your future, leave it to fete babe.
    Hope this all makes sense to you.
    Chin up hun
    xxx

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